Nothing is Impossible

Recently I have been fighting for OT (Occupational Therapy) for my son. I have asked and requested so many services for him that it started off as one day then turned into weeks, and weeks into months and finally after four years April 18,2008 my son was approved for OT. I have fought so hard and prayed so much and finally God opened a door and answered. Nothing is impossible, anything is possible if only you believe and today I look at my son and watch him learn and do new things, It feels like the first time I held him in my arms. This is to all the those who go thru this struggle of fighting for the needs and interest of your child. Please believe God answers and all those tears you have shed he kept them close to his heart and knew when it was the time to give you what your heart desired. This was the best birthday gift I have ever had was the gift to benefit my son and his needs.

The Little Things

So much is going on in the world around us all, that I just have to take a moment and be thankful. Thankful that I am here when so many didnt make it, thankful that each day I awake in the morning I can watch my children grow up. Thankful for the sister I have even when she gets on my last nerve, thankful for my best friend who is far away. Thankful that another day has come and the flowers still bloom at the peak of the sun. Thankful for the rain that comes perhaps God had to do some spring cleaning of his own. Iam thankful for the home I have even if it isnt the one I desire. Thankful for the tears I've shed I know there will be a better tomorrow. Thankful that I can run and dance, I am blessed to have that activity.Thankful I can sing aloud because no one can ever silence me. Thankful that I have someone who makes me feel complete, thankful that our love is what made us a real family. The little things that mean so much, the little we take for granted are the ones that matter most.

My Helper, My Middle Child

Living with an autistic child has it's moments, days and nights. One thing that Iam very grateful for is my son, my middle child J.J . J.J is the middle child in the family and full of energy. It amazes me how he understand his brothers so well. He even knows when it's rough for me, he will help out with his brothers by playing with them and talking to them and doing activites with them. I really feel that he dosent see the autism at all, I believe he just understands that his brothers are different in many ways. Example one day I was cooking dinner and the t.v was on but it was loud, so J.J turns and says " mom it's hurting him turn it down right now" my jaw droped automatically and I immediately turned down the television and J.J. ask his brother is it better now ? his brother shakes his head saying yes.

I do at times feel as if I dont pay my middle child enough attention because my mind and day is generally focused on his brothers and securing the correct service and making sure they are okay and not being mistreated and denied the proper help they need. I do let him know that everyday I appreciate all that he does for his brother . I truly believe this will shape his understanding and his personality as a man one day. My middle child J.J is my helper and my child and the greatest. He brighten's up his brothers face each and every day, I know that one day when Iam not here, it will him that cares for his brothers always, because that is love.

Stress Moments

Dealing with a special needs child is rough but what do you do to de-stress the atmosphere down. What are different ways you can reach your child and help them feel comfortable. What can I do as a parent to make it better. Well as a mother of an autistic child, I find a way of huging them and rubbing them to tell them it's okay we are having a moment this one will pass. Iam not gonna beat around the bush their have been moments where I just had to cry but I have learned crying cleanses the soul and releases so much stress at times. I dance in the living with my child play a favorite song, my oldest loves Spider man's Hero or we just make our own music and I will sit with him and sing to him or hum. By the time Iam done I notice that he is no longer upset or screaming or stimming at all. The mood has died down and we are quiet and at peace.

It is so hard .... so hard going through this and at times you feel all alone like no one on the earth understands what as a parent, mother or father or going thru. Today I had to just pray, just sit and talk to God. I was upset about some programs for my son that were denied. A program that I felt he really needed it and it was denied. I really had to de-stress the moment out, so I found a theme song, started talking to God and the stress was lifted. There are moments when you have to just place it in God's hand and let those tantrums and emotions slowly go away. I hope that helps you, it helps me.